Changes are afoot. Aren't they always? Pretty much.
I admire people who can laser focus on a passion, hobby or career and become an expert in one narrow niche over the years, but that isn't for me. I'd rather explore everything and remain mediocre.
Change is what I do.
One thing won't change. Me. I will always be like this. I have made peace with my constant state of change and it is exactly what I'm meant to be doing. You see, what I've discovered is that I don't have to pick. I don't have to make a proclamation that "now I'm doing such and such until the end of time" because that will never be true. And I don't need to narrow my focus unless I want to. I don't have to decide or figure out what I want to do with my life because I'm already doing it. Already living it. At any given time exactly what that involves will be different but that is just the way I like it.
Sure, I get those voices inside my head that say, "You should focus! Either build websites or be a stay at home mom or be a toymaker or be a ceramic artist...just DECIDE already! Everyone knows you can't be successful at anything unless you focus and define yourself as something." But I can't do it. When I try to I get all itchy inside. I realize I'd rather be average at a whole bunch of things than be the best at just one thing.
So I'm done putting pressure on myself to narrow my focus when it doesn't feel right. And I'm embracing the part of me that will always change direction as it makes the sailing smoother.
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What do you think? Are you a jack of all trades or a specialist when it comes to your interests, hobbies or career?
